How does one define happiness? Is it something we can see, smell, hear, touch, give away, steal, find or maybe even create? Why is it that happiness for one person is not the same happiness for someone else? Is true happiness only available in the form of a pill or can real happiness be found within ourselves? Buddhist monks, for centuries, have probably been some of the happiest people in the world, yet they have remarkable little material belongings. They don’t need “things” to bring about happiness, so how do they do it?
I have suffered from depression for years which eventually led me down a scary and rocky path of drug addiction, unsafe sex, alcoholism and a very well needed stay in a psychiatric hospital and rehab facility. Since then I have focused on eastern medicine, and hopefully finding happiness without using a pill at some point. Going on hikes, traveling, watching the sunset, walking barefoot through dew-covered grass early in the morning, dancing in the rain, cooking, kayaking, skinny dipping, learning to laugh, playing with puppies…you know, all that stuff that is supposed to make people happy. Those are the things that I focus on now. Even now, there are still days when I have to pry myself out of the bed, but I know that it’s the healthiest thing for me to do. I refuse to allow even one day to pass without allowing myself to fully enjoy every moment. Yes, there will be bad days, but I know that a storm doesn’t last forever! The thing with battling depression is that you must be an active participant in your recovery. You must pursue happiness and some days you have to use every bit of strength you have to make yourself do at least one thing to make you happy.
It’s not an easy journey, but so far it’s been a fun one! Since June 16th 2012 I have overcome by addiction to prescription medication, beat the urge to abuse alcohol, lost 135lbs and have now become a much healthier person…physically, mentally and spiritually! I want to prove to people that it’s possible to be truly happy in an age when most people are incredibly miserable.
I invite you to take this journey with me! I won’t post every day and there will be times when I may even bore you to death, but I promise to share my story and to share my expeditions with anyone who will listen! I’ve started blogs before in the past and told myself I would post at least three times a week, yet I always fail to do so then I just give up all together. This time will be different, for I won’t actually set a goal, but will simply write when I can.
So here I go on my search for happiness…join me?? 🙂